Hey love. It sounds crazy where you are right now. It also sounds like your mother has anger displacement and she is transferring her own self loathing to you. The way you are handling yourself in this situation is amazing and proves how strong and worthy you are. You are a very strong woman. I moved out when I was 18 with no money no car no license. I was crying the first week I was gone but after that week I realized I made the best decision. I started working 2 jobs and loved the independence. It sounds like you already have a job. And did u know u don't need friends to get roomies? U can go on roomster.com or other sites like that one to read about roomies and can even meet them before hand. Rent won't be as much maybe between 200 to 400 a month and u can pick the area u want to live in. I wish u the best of everything. And remember "no one can make you feel inferior without your consent".

You are the "Fix-It-Up-Chappy in your family. This is the family member who tries to be perfect and do every body elses job and keep the family running. But this can drive you nuts. You are trying to fix your parents and your family and you can't. You parents have to fix it and you need to move on.

Do not believe a word your parents say say to you, you are the one who is succeeding in life and they are not. You are the the responsible one they are relying on, to fix it for them. They feel irritated, because they can't do things themselves.

You being responsible and suceeding in everything, just reminds them how inadequate they really are. Do not let them tear you down any more, get out of there now, before it is too late. They are down and they are pulling you down with them. You deserve better, you deserve a life without abuse.
God lbess and take care.